Prover's words and symptoms
(Day 00 is the 1st day of taking the remedy)

Day/Prover #/words

MIND:   

(note: we believe that the remedy was related to an outbreak of mumps for prover #1 see Culex.)

01      #1(M)  I am experiencing undulating sensations.

03      #1      my thoughts are moving quickly  (before the mumps).

03      #1      I was cursing a lot today.

04      #1      I have kaleidoscopic images in my mind.  (before the mumps)

04      #1      I'm talking, but I feel like I'm asleep.

04      #1      I was confused in the subway today.

04      #1      I feel friendless and forsaken.

05      #1      I'm afraid of showing my weakness.

05      #1      I've always had to swallow other people's shit. 

05      #1      I feel like I take care of everyone and no one takes care of me.

05      #1      I could lie in bed in my own shit and pee and choke on                     my saliva and no one would care for me.

05      #1      I'm glad I'm sick and my supervisor has to take care of me.

08      #1      I feel like I've gone through a metamorphosis (during the                     mumps).

13      #1      It's like waking from the dead. (after recovery from the                     mumps).
(note:  we believe that the remedy was physically curative for prover #2 (Rheumatoid arthritis))

00      #2(F)   After I took the 2nd dose of the remedy, I laid down for a nap.                      I had a dream where I became very light-- and I was flying in
                     my house from room to room to room, looking down at my
                     husband. I felt light and young. When I woke up, I was pain free
                     for the first time in 15 years.

00      #2      The aches and the heaviness and the pain are gone now.

00      #2      I feel younger and happier.

01      #2      I feel 500 pounds lighter.

01      #2      I feel strong, self confident and decisive- assertive.

01      #2      I feel clear and focused.

01      #2      I feel like I'm floating on a man's back.

02      #2      all my doubt is gone, I feel peppy.

03      #2      I don't feel quite as light, but I still feel good.

03      #2      I was cursing a lot today.

03      #2      I am a living catalyst, I help others reach their goals but I don't                     do it for myself.

04      #2      I'm angry about being hurt in the past.

08      #2      I feel so weak- I can't move.

08      #2      I want to kill myself.

09      #2      I feel guilty for screaming at my nephew.

10      #2      I feel tired, guilty and I hate myself and I want to kill myself.

24      #2      I feel like someone injected or paralyzed me but my brain is still                     going.

25      #2      I feel like an airplane that crashed

26      #2      I am without friends and I listen to everyone else's stuff.

29      #2      I feel like I have cancer.
(prover #2 repeated the remedy, under advisement, over the last 3 years.  Her previously constant pain of 15 years never returned. She is now  doing very well on Cantharis.)

00      #3(F)   I feel unheard (weeping).

01      #3      I feel groggy when awake.

01      #3      I feel out of place.

03      #3      exercise makes my insides sing- all my physical heaviness, the
                    swampiness, the drudgery, is better.

04      #3      I need to clean my house completely.

04      #3      I am feeling more masculine while wanting to be more feminine
                    and yet I feel the masculinity has moved me forward.

05      #3      I have a memory for shit.

08      #3      I feel heavy.

15      #3      I feel hopeless.

15      #3      I feel suicidal.

before the 1st dose  #4  I had an image of picking sores until they bled
00      #4(F)  I have numbness in my upper body.

00      #4      I have increased energy after the 3rd dose.

01      #4      I can't believe I overslept!  I needed to get to this meeting on
                    time!!!!

02      #4      I felt unusually calm when I had dinner with my mother.

04      #4      I have a dull, gripping headache like too  much caffeine.

04      #4      I feel pregnant.

08      #4      I'm dead tired.

09      #4      My body is dead.

09      #4      I am unusually forgetful today.

11      #4      I have a terrible flu- I feel sick, sick, sick.

16      #4      I am worried about going back to my boring, bland life now that                    the proving is over.

(prover #5 was our special prover)
just before the 1st dose #5 smelled the open vial and " it smelled like quite ripe peaches"

00      #5(M)  I felt a sense of corruption between two gay men.

00      #5      I jumped when I saw garbage bags moving in the dumpster.

00      #5      The water on my wrist looks like many eyes.

00      #5      The lint on my robe looks like a nest of insects or fish eggs.

00      #5      a man in the subway rubbed up against me and I felt oily and
                    corrupt

00      #5      a co-worker asked me if I had "crack" for lunch.

00      #5      I flinched when my wife gestured at me because I thought she
                    was going to hit me.

00      #5      I find myself thinking of Italian things- I saw an Italian friend and
                    later I noticed an Italian haircut.

00      #5      I feel unbalanced- I had to catch myself against a wall today.

00      #5      There was a frenzy of hands like a shiva when I was rinsing my
                    face.

01      #5      I saw hundreds of eyes in my soap foam this morning.

01      #5      I feel like I'm being watched.

01      #5      I think the remedy is of the earth- degrading and decomposing.

01      #5      I felt aggressive contempt for an old lady.

01      #5      I saw a transvestite and I couldn't look at him for shame.

01      #5      I feel a compulsive need to buy things.

01      #5      I am surrounded by corruption and decay.

02      #5      I feel outside my body.

03      #5      the word garbage keeps coming up for me.

03      #5      I don't want to speak to my supervisor, I don't want to expose                     myself.

03      #5      I had a vision of being in the Grand Armee and dying of cholera
                    on my return from Russia.

04      #5      I had a vision of a dead squirrel with beetles and wasps
                    burrowing into its vacant and collapsed eyes.

04      $5      I feel like crap, rotten inside, foul, I feel like crying.

05      #5      I need to look into people because part of me is in there.

05      #5      my wife thinks this remedy is a seaworm or a fly.

05      #5      I thought I heard retching on the subway platform but nobody
                    was there.

06      #5      I found my fly open twice today.

06      #5      I feel oily and greasy.

06      #5      I tripped down the subway steps twice today.

06      #5      I didn't want my wife to go to work because I was afraid she
                    would die.

09      #5      I'm afraid my wife is leaving me.

09      #5      I want to stay with my wife and protect her.

09      #5      This proving has gone on for 3 lifetimes already, but I have to
                    continue for the sake of homeopathy.

10      #5      When I opened a new book to a random page it was describing
                    how maggots clean pearls.

10      #5      I am drawn to brackish water between the subway tracks.

11      #5      I want to avoid people- so I feel like an animal with my eyes
                   darting all around.

12      #5      I want to go on a vacation so I' going to avoid my supervisor.

12      #5      I am frantic to buy new clothes- its like being on cocaine.

13      #5      I feel highly stressed today.

21      #5      I think this proving is about garbage.

01      #6(F)   I was afraid today of having a car crash.

02      #6      my son called me Daddy today (prover #6 is the mother).

08      #6      I have a strong desire to masturbate today.

10      #6      I'm overwhelmed by details.

18      #6      I am cleaning spontaneously today.

19      #6      I feel an anxiety in the pit of my stomach--"what's it all about?"

01      #7(M)   My wife says I am quiet and pensive.

02      #7      I can't believe I let myself take this remedy- its the spirit of an
                    insect or rodent.

15      #7      I'm confused a lot of the time- I forgot a very important
                    person's name today.

17      #7      I forgot the name of a friend I've known all my life.

23      #7      I feel so sad, I wept before going to bed tonight.

00      #8(F)   I can't put my thoughts in order.

03      #8      I blanked out and ran a red light.

03      #8      I forgot my car keys.

13      #8      I have no motivation to work or play.

13      #8      I have such severe anxiety- its like a curtain or a maze.

14      #8      I feel as if 1000 fingers are scratching my whole body.

26      #8      I'm confused again- I tried to open my house with the car
                    keys and my car with the house keys.

27      #8      I'm confused- I entered the closet thinking its the bathroom

28      #8      Again today, I left the keys in my car while it was running
                   and I locked the doors.

02      #9 (F)  Life is a hopeless dump.

02      #9      I feel distant from everyone.

03      #9      I feel very sensitive to noise and dirty air.

03      #9      I helped my friend move and I felt taken advantage of.

04      #9      I feel nervous, I'm very irritated by high pitched noises.

04      #9      I feel a strong urge to clean.

04      #9      I forgot the oven was on for hours!

05      #9      I am very intolerant of noise.

05      #9      I'm nagging my kids constantly.

07      #9      the people on the subway seem young and beautiful.

07      #9      I'm paranoid about the black men in the subway.

07      #9       the people on the subway seem young and beautiful.

08      #9      I cleaned my house thoroughly.

11      #9      my life is sordid, at a dead end.

11      #9      my isolation is absolute, it doesn't matter if I'm here or not. 

11      #9      I long for sunnyness, tenderness, intimacy.

12      #9      I was afraid the main in the subway with the raincoat would
                   flash me.

DREAMS:

00      #2(F)   After I took the 1st dose of the remedy, I laid down for a
                     nap. I had a dream where I became very light-- and I was flying
                     in my house from room to room to room, looking down at my
                     husband. I felt light and young. When I woke up, I was pain free
                     for the first time in 15 years.

00      #2      I also dreamt I was flying or floating on a man's back.

00      #2      I am a white ghost floating in an old house. I felt like I was
                   dreaming at the same time that I was awake.

01      #2      I am a soldier riding a horse on a beach while I'm looking at
                    a house under the water.

01      #2      I'm on vacation. I'm wearing a red dress and I look like a
                    hooker.

03      #2      I dreamt I was in Italy, on the beach. I felt very young and light.

03      #2      I was in Italy, wearing only a towel. I was with old friends and
                    family and there were 2 blonde Labrador retrievers, one of
                    them was blind.

03      #2      I was living with some girls that I know, but one of them I
                    can't stand.

00      #3(F)   I was a troll lady with enormous red hair. Monkeys were
                     scuttling off into the distance.

03      #3      I dreamt of wild horses.

03      #3      I dreamt of Spanish girls with beautiful blue eyes. I caressed
                   them.

03      #3      I run into my old boyfriend and another woman. I woke up
                   feeling lonely and really sad about all the hurt I felt with him.

12      #3      I'm at a nudist colony where there are people with gross,
                    saggy, fleshy bodies. There is an "examiner" who threatens
                    to dry up my period (menses) and turn me into an old crone.

28      #3      I'm getting married and a gay friend comes to my wedding.
                    I'm so happy to see him.

05      #4(F)   There were monsters in elevators and escalators. The
                     monsters are sucking people up- many people are dying.

01      #5(M)   I'm in a green terraced city. My wife is subserviently
                     waitressing to her friends and to some greedy gay men. I
                     suddenly realized how much her abortion affected me.

01      #5      There is a baby- and it is really sick. There is a choice
                    between the "Gay men's health crisis center" or "Pilgrim".

02      #5      I'm in a crypt on a raft in the ocean. The "good" revolutionaries
                    machine gun the "bad" guys until they become liquefied by the
                    bullets.

03      #5      I need to take a shit- so I squat down behind a railroad seat
                    and I go into a coffee filter. I put it in my underwear. I see an
                    old friend and his girlfriend come by. They are porno stars and
                    they tell me to come and watch. I am repulsed by the corrupt
                    sexuality.

03      #5      I go to a beach in Greece with my wife. The cops come after us
                    and want to fine us for being there and they are threatening us
                    and looking for a bribe.

06      #5      I am buying a house with great oak trim and expensive cellars.
                    One wing is all bathrooms, newly tiled. Is the house $35,000 or
                    $350,000?

08      #5      I am with my supervisor on a ranch in the tropics taking
                    picturesof drugged young men. There is a greasy movie director
                    there making a film.

11      #5      I am with Susan Sonz and Robert Stewart (master provers)
                    and my supervisor and we are working on an assembly line.

12      #5      I'm with my wife on the beach. I woke up with a sudden sexual
                    desire- and my wife fends me off. So I go back to sleep and
                    dream of being on the same beach again.

13      #5      I'm in a depopulated factory town. I go into an old house and
                    its flooded. There are cats on the floor. I make some hot dogs
                    to eat and they turn into grub worms.

14      #5      I dreamt that an old friend of my supervisor has gone crazy-
                    she is in tears.

21      #5      my father got chewed up by a shark.

02      #6(F)   I'm in a corporation. I have to perform an operation on the
                     kitchen floor. There's so much blood- I'm overwhelmed by it.

03      #6      I'm in a church, outside of a pew with a man who raped and
                   murdered a child. I get out my checkbook.

04      #6      There was a boat burning on the water.

04      #6      the police are looking for us.

04      #6      I dreamt again of a corporation- but Ally McBeal cannot buy
                    it for me.

05      #6      I'm at a show at the Coliseum. There are 3 large goldfish in
                    the show.

08      #6      I'm in a large glass building overlooking the water. I go
                    swimming.

11      #6      I dreamt of my dead mother.

12      #6      I'm looking for a shower. I wander into the men's shower
                    room. They get really upset and threaten me.

13      #6      I dreamt I was on a boat on the ocean.

15      #6      I dreamt I was sitting on some damp grass.

19      #6      I'm traveling through tunnels to get to a movie theatre.

02      #7(M)   I'm repairing an old house. I'm laying bathroom tiles.

03      #7      There are bombs falling from the sky. Soldiers are attacking
                    and bombing.

09      #7      I see my wife with a young man. I feel really betrayed.

01      #8(F)   I'm living on a island. I see some people up on a balcony-
                     some of them are falling off and they are being sucked up
                     into a sewer grate. Two girlfriends of mine drive off in an old
                     car to catch a boat. I heard that the car caught fire and the
                     women were burnt up.

01      #8      My son is stuck in a toilet, head downward.

01      #8      A gangster of humble origin wants to hire me for an
                    "intelligence" job.

01      #8      I dreamt of an old friend who died 3 years ago.

01      #8      I had a very erotic dream and I had a huge orgasm

03      #8      I went to the nuns to ask for something. the Mother
                    Superior is very grouchy and unhelpful.

00      #10(M) I dreamt of an ugly black dog

00      #10     I am seducing a woman and my wife walks in. I am afraid
                     that I have deceived the other woman by not telling her
                     I'm married.

00      #10     I am standing at a urinal. The man next to me says I have
                     a very large penis and asks if he can touch it. I realize the
                     bathroom is full of perverts.

00      #10     I'm in a large stadium where a strange lacrosse type game
                     is being played on un cut grass. The ball is a large flat pillow.
                     I realize I'm barefoot and I look for my boots.

00      #10     I'm in an office with an attractive woman. I turn off the lights
                     -- but then all the people return.

01      #10     I dreamt of someone with a large tumor on his left shoulder.

21      #10     I am looking down from above; there are lots of people
                     swimming in a lake and I am concerned they might drown.

27      #10     My wife is calling out to me--"where are you?" I feel anxious
                     and frightened for my family.

27      #10     I dreamt of tunneling underground.

27      #10     I saw a black glob of an oily substance.

27      #10     I am alone in a big house. I go outside. I am worried about
                     the rioting of Black Americans. A house is on fire- so I look
                     for a hose.

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